I don't know about you but I am tired, physically and emotionally. Parenting is HARD and parenting two kids is even harder than I ever thought it would be. The tears from an emotional almost three year old to the cries for attention nine month old. Do you ever feel like you are failing majorly from your parenting skills? I know I do almost daily.
Before I was a parent I remember judging "those" moms in public always criticizing in my head how I would do it differently or better. I am that mom now, the one that bribes my to year old just so she will sit calmly in the shopping cart. Or the mom juggling two screaming kids out of the store. Friends I fail every single day, I yell, I have cursed (regret in immensely). My daughter can tell when I am upset because she will ask in her sweet voice "mom are you happy?"
I am a failure, but you know what helps me to keep on going on, its Gods grace towards me. He knows I am going to mess up, he knows I am going to yell when its not necessary. He allows me to come back to the cross over and over again. Forgiving me for my sins and simply forgetting them. I don't deserve it and I know that but he allows it because he LOVES me immensely. For me this is the reminder of how I need to be towards my children he has gifted to me. I am thankful for them, even when they make me feel crazy. I am thankful that they are teaching me patience even though I am a slow learner and I am so grateful they continue to love me when I am unlovable.
So friends if you are struggling in the parenting department like myself, remember God is listening. He is your shoulder to cry on to ask for forgiveness and remember that tomorrow is a new day.
"Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken." Psalm 55:22
