Learning to love my body

Honestly this is something that I never even thought about before having Elcie. I never thought about having issues losing the baby weight after birth. My entire life I have had a ridiculously fast metabolism, so fast it was hard for me to even gain weight. All growing up I got teased by people thinking I was to skinny.

Now three months postpartum I still am hanging onto baby weight. 

(Let me clarify before I continue writting. Yes I know I'm only three months postpartum, and am no means trying to become my pre pregnancy weight.)

I never knew the emotions of feeling self conscious of body weight. It's a daily struggle looking in the mirror lately, and this is not okay. It breaks my heart how as a society we feel that we need to be thin to feel beautiful. This is something I am trying to change my mind set from for myself. I always think any size woman are beautiful but I am being so hard on myself since giving birth. I know I am not the only one. We put so much pressure on our selfs feeling like we need to be back to what we were before, yet our bodies went through creating life. I have had to really pray hard these past couple months to focus my eyes on the positive rather then the negative. It's so hard as a women to work through the self conscious body issues when all we see daily is photo shopped women on magazines or online. I want to be able to see the way the lord views me, and realize that the outside truly isn't what is important to the lord it's our hearts. "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart." 1 Samuel 16:7

A huge thing that has been heavy on my heart is the fact that I have Elcie a daughter and she will look up to me. If I continue down the path of getting so focused on body imperfections and wanting to look like so and so, she will feel that she needs to as well. I don't want her to ever feel like she needs to change her self to become something better physically. I want my daughter to know she is beautiful being her, and that she does not need to be a size 0 to be beautiful. I want her to see that "mom pooch" is a proud honor to have! 

So I pray for not only myself struggling with this but all you ladies moms or not trying to get to where you love your body for how it is! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUlL because Christ created you!