My Identity Is In Christ

I don't know about you but when I am working, whatever job it may be I strive to be the best. I crave to be a leader and want to be the best I can possibly be at that job. Lately I have been questioning my heart behind it. Am I truly doing this because I am trying to serve Christ in whatever I am doing? Or is it for fleshly desires. Well I can answer that one, it has definitely been for fleshly desires. I have caught myself lately so focused on thinking "if only". If only I can reach management I would be happy, if only I am a well known hairstylist I will be happy. If only my husband did this, or if only my daughter didn't do that. Friends I am so flawed and I am so thankful that the lord knows this but still picks me up. None of those "things" will make me fully satisfied. Whatever in your life your trying to reach with that same mindset you to will be disappointed. The ONLY thing that ever has fully satisfied my quench is Jesus Christ. There isn't a "if only" with him. I was looking at verses that ring true to this.These are just a couple verses out of several that really helped me refocus

-You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand. Psalm 16:11

-As for me, I will be vindicated and will see your face; when I awake, I will be satisfied with seeing your likeness. Psalm 17:15

I was listening to a song at church recently that just really made me stop and think about all of this. That song is  Good Good Father by Chris Tomlin " You're a good good father its who you are, and I am loved by you, its who I am" Is the line that hit me. Its say it perfectly He is so good to us, so good that he sent his son to die for OUR sins. That sin includes trying to satisfy my fleshly desires. Then it says I am loved by him which made me realize for the first time after hearing this song a hundred times, that I am his. I am his and that's all that matters. I will never be a perfect mom, wife, hairstylist or any other title. But the Lord God loves me and is satisfied with me, my flawed self. He loves me when I should be a better wife, or when I had no patience with Elcie. He loves me if I am just a hairstylist that has a small clientele. Friends we need too stop focusing on this world and what the world says we should be. This life is so quick and when we face God he will not say "Good Job Kayla, I am so proud of you for reaching management" or "way to go at getting your name known as a hairstylist" No he will not say any of that. 

Where is your identity friend?

2Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2