God Chose Me

 I was never warned (or at least I ignored the warnings) how hard and straining being a parent would be. The movies are a lie, the cute Instagram photos are just moments of joy. Because at the end of the day I am human and so is my daughter. I never thought parenting would be 'easy' but I definitely never expected it to be this difficult. I didn't expect that I would break down crying along with my toddler all because it has been a long day and she all of a sudden doesn't like chicken.... even though that's all she wanted last week. I expected that I would be able to raise my child way better than the mom I saw at the park with her screaming child when I was 7 months pregnant... but now I am THAT MOM. Not because I don't discipline but simply because my child is not a robot, she has a fierce personality and she will show it no matter where we are. 

I hate that feeling when I feel like I am the only mom that cries when I just feel like I can't continue being mom at the end of the day. Or I am the only mom that has a child that throws tantrums in the middle of a store. I know that this is just a season because there is a season in everything, but man oh man does it feel like the rest of my life will be full of stress and tears ;) But today I am reminded how BLESSED I am. It is so easy to get wrapped up and stressed over the little things in parenting but after I think of it all, I wouldn't go back to life without her. I love the kisses and the hugs, the "hi" and "momma". The food smeared on my shirt, or the chasing after her as she giggles. These are the moments that make the difficult times easier. 

God chose me for Elcie, she is my child yes but she is first and foremost Gods daughter that he entrusted to me. This is a simple reminder to help me push through and raise her into the women he intends for her to be. He doesn't want me to give up on disciplining her, because she needs the direction. Sometimes it would be easier to not discipline because then its not a fight, but like I say "I am raising a girl to not end up in jail" ;) but in all seriousness I am raising a girl that will be apart of this next generation. I pray that she is a light in this dark world. I pray that she uses her fierce personality to stand up for what is right. Most importantly a women after Gods own heart. 

Mommas, please know I am praying for YOU, for the tired middle of the night feedings. For the moments you just feel like you have had enough. I pray that the lord would give you wisdom and strength in how to raise up your sweet baby. I pray that you would feel like you are ENOUGH and not just a mom, because you are so much more than just a mom. How greatly blessed are we to be chosen to be our babies moms. God specifically chose each one of us, so remember that sweet reminder in the good moments and the hard times. 

XOXO