This week has been the best and most exauhsting time in my life! Elcie was born last sunday January 18th at 9:58pm weighing 7lb 2oz. The week leading up to her birth I was at a real low, just done being pregnant. I had never cried so much in my entire life. I was at the point where it felt like I was going to be pregnant for the rest of my life.
We went to the hospital on thursday January 15th because I was having continuous contractions... Being my first time I was unsure if it was go time. When we arrived I was 4cm dialted, they had us walk around the hospital to see if there was change. The nurse said "if there is change you stay, if not we will send you home". We got back an hour later to find out I progressed to 5cm... But was told we were being sent home because they wanted to try and wait till I became 38 weeks which was 4 days later. I was so mad... Confused because I was expecting to stay. Mad because I just wanted to be done. I was fighting with God so much on this praying why not now? I felt so low. The next couple days I walked more than I ever have... Motivated to get our baby out. Then saturday night came. I was with my family and just broke down balling. Hormones, frustration, and plain just being uncomfortable all hit at once. I was so DONE.
The next morning we woke up and went to church and then we spent the afternoon walking. Around 12pm I had this gut feeling I needed to go to the hospital. My contractions were not painful nor had they ever been. But I just knew we needed to go. When we got there I was so cranky, just saying "Tay their sending us home". So when the nurse walked in and said you're having a baby tonight I was in shock. I instantly went from mad to the happiest I have ever been in my life. Tay likes to refer to it as "kayla bipolar moment" ;) which I completely agree. I was laughing and smiling genuinely for the first time in weeks. I had finally reached the end. Later that night our baby girl Elcie arrived. I had never felt so complete in my entire life.
I know now that it was Gods perfect timing in all this. She wasnt ready to come into the world until sunday. God is so good, even in the times I dought him!
We went to the hospital on thursday January 15th because I was having continuous contractions... Being my first time I was unsure if it was go time. When we arrived I was 4cm dialted, they had us walk around the hospital to see if there was change. The nurse said "if there is change you stay, if not we will send you home". We got back an hour later to find out I progressed to 5cm... But was told we were being sent home because they wanted to try and wait till I became 38 weeks which was 4 days later. I was so mad... Confused because I was expecting to stay. Mad because I just wanted to be done. I was fighting with God so much on this praying why not now? I felt so low. The next couple days I walked more than I ever have... Motivated to get our baby out. Then saturday night came. I was with my family and just broke down balling. Hormones, frustration, and plain just being uncomfortable all hit at once. I was so DONE.
The next morning we woke up and went to church and then we spent the afternoon walking. Around 12pm I had this gut feeling I needed to go to the hospital. My contractions were not painful nor had they ever been. But I just knew we needed to go. When we got there I was so cranky, just saying "Tay their sending us home". So when the nurse walked in and said you're having a baby tonight I was in shock. I instantly went from mad to the happiest I have ever been in my life. Tay likes to refer to it as "kayla bipolar moment" ;) which I completely agree. I was laughing and smiling genuinely for the first time in weeks. I had finally reached the end. Later that night our baby girl Elcie arrived. I had never felt so complete in my entire life.
I know now that it was Gods perfect timing in all this. She wasnt ready to come into the world until sunday. God is so good, even in the times I dought him!
The first night of her life on the outside was pretty easy. Exhausting but easy. I should have been sleeping but all I wanted to do was just stare.
Its amazing seeing what Tayler and I have created.
The second night was rough... Emotionally. She was crying but I couldnt sooth her in anyway. I felt helpless. I know there will be other nights like this, but I pray there be few. There is no heart dropping feeling then the moment you feel like you're not enough for your baby. My husband is amazing though... He took her so I could just cry and then she calmed down ;)
We finally got home and let me tell you there was no better feeling then having baby in our natural environment. I am way lessed stressed and am able to easily soke up her cuteness. Hazel our kitty was confused at what we brought home but now she will alwayd be by her side like she is a guard kitty!
My favorite part of my day is our night time feeding sessions. When Tay is sound asleep and its just her and I. Its so wonderful watching how God made it possible for as a mom to provide. Its so tiring, but yet I never want it to end.
We have been taking her out everyday. I love it, mainly just love our family. I love seeing Tay as a daddy, he has changed in such a wonderful way. Elcie loves her morning time with dad while I get ready. I am more in love with my husband then I was when Elcie was in my tummy. You see your spouse in a complete different way and I love it.
She has been and is the biggest blessing to us, I cannot imagine life without her. Thank you lord!
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