I've learned something huge, something so simple that I should understand and know already. But sometimes it takes time and trials to fully understand and grasp the lord. I've learned I cannot control nor choose everything in my life. Yes I can decide to walk with Christ or not but I'm talking about the more detailed things in life. I can try my hardest to make a baby but at the end of the day the lords timing is what will control all of it.
I've been sad, mad, okay, emotionless with my miscarriage back in January. I instantly afterwards said I did not want to get pregnant for a LONG time but then after all the emotions I came back to reality and realized I wanted more babies. We have been trying, no success. But you know what it's honestly okay. I'm okay because I've come to realize God knows the time for our family. He sees the BIG picture. He knows what we can handle, physically, financially etc. so with that I am okay. I will have my sad moments because I am human but I fully trust the lord.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
Proverbs 3:5-6
We too often try to control everything in our lives but at the end of the day we need to trust in the lord. Running to him in the good and bad times. Stopping whatever we are doing and just praying. A simple prayer. No matter where you are he listens and hears us. He answers.
I have a very awesome sweet friend that text me this: "Weird is good. Weird makes us push into Jesus. Weird makes us need to trust and pray and wait on The Lord. " after describing that I just felt weird. How true it is that through our trials we will draw close to him, and he uses trials for us to do just that!
Friends what trials are you facing, and are you running to the lord to help you face them?
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